Life Sucks!

It has been a very frustrating time. I am up to 180 again. My band isn't full enough, but my doctor wont give me a fill because he says I am making poor choices, which I am, but I am making poor choices because the band allows me to and because I am just so tired of the whole process in general. I really need to re-focus and I just haven't been able too.

On a side note, however, we just spent a family weekend in Big Bear and took photos at the Discovery Center and then Ed posted this photo on our camping blog.  So I guess on the overall scheme of things I'm doing fine.  I just have to get through the day to day issues.

I need to re-focus

I haven't posted in a while, Mainly because I am so fed up.  I have not lost weight in over six months and I cannot, cannot, get my eating under control. My band is too loose but I've had it too tight as well and that is just miserable and I just can't stop eating no matter how hard I try.

I am frustrated, with life, with my outlook towards food, my job.  I need to re-focus. I need to celebrate what I have already accomplished and get my life back under control.