Friday, April 24, 2009

An Awful Week

OMG sometimes I hate my band.  This is the second time that I have gone in for a fill and done awesome during liquids and mushies phase.  Been excited that I finally have restriction and just know that I have found my "sweet spot" and all will be right with the world. soon as I get to the solid food stage, I end up eating something that gets "stuck". Which starts a whirlwind of throwing up and swelling and ultimately getting to the point where I can't even keep water down. This time I waited it out, but after two days of not being able to keep water down and starting to get headaches from being so hungry, I had to go back in for an un-fill a second time.  I am now down to 5.8 cc's.  At one point I was at 7.  I just know it's not enough, but I was so miserable before.  I want to have good restriction and lose weight slow and steadily, but no so bad that I will tolerate the pain and there is no way I can ride out the swelling and not eat or drink for several days in a row.  I am happy with my current weight loss and accept that I will have to rely on more willpower and less band. At some point however, this band has GOT to meet me halfway.

Monday, April 20, 2009

Rude Awakening

Well if I've finally reached full restriction than what have I been doing for the past 7 months.  I have read on blog after blog about how I need to take small bites, chew, chew, chew and that I wouldn't be able to consume more than about two ounces at a time.  I heard about it but never felt it.  Well now I do.  It has been a rude awakening.  OMG, I know I'm not too tight because I can keep liquids and soft proteins down, but man if I don't chew slowly then I am hating life.  On the other hand, I am down another 7 pounds. So it will take some adjustment and re-learning but I can take it.  I feel so great and so healthy that I will survive this challenge.

Sunday, April 19, 2009

A good Weekend

Well I had a great weekend camping (or rather cabining) with friends and visiting with our old friends Paul and Linda Jones. We stayed at the Boy Scout Camp in Holcomb Valley where Paul is the in resident park ranger.  Ed did all the cooking and I feel like I have finally reached my sweet spot. I was able to eat a bit of food, feel full and no hunger in between meals. As a matter of fact, getting food down at all on some days was very hard and other days went well.  I do believe I may be back on track.  I know I still have to do my part, but hopefully I won't be hungry between meals and things will be easier now.  

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

A fill and hopefully a new start

Well I finally got in to see my Doctor and he gave me a fill. Basically he added what had been taken out when I got sick last time. He didn't have me drink water while he did the fill like he usually does so I don't know if it will be enough. I'm hoping it will be enough.  Something needs to change as I am getting very frustrated with not being able to figure this band out. I am very happy with my overall progress but it has been a lot harder than I thought it would be. Regardless, I have lasted longer and lost more than I ever did before and that includes the time I was taking Phen-Fen.  So on the one hand I am happy and on the other very scared about re-gaining my weight. Each day is a new day.

Friday, April 10, 2009

Ups and Downs

It has been an up and down kind of week.  I start my day off right and by the end of the day all of my good intentions are out the window. Counting the days till my doctor's appointment. I went to Universal Studios with the family yesterday and pretty much ate nonstop the entire day.

I have done well today but have decided to stop counting calories for a few days. I plan on sticking to my three meals with small snacks and sticking to high protein. With calorie counting, I found that if I set a calorie limit and didn't reach it, I was eating extra food even though I wasn't hungry. So I am going to try this for a while.  At this point I am trying anything and everything.

Monday, April 6, 2009

A new week

Well I am back at work after a busy weekend. I didn't spend too much time keeping track of my food choices, but then I seldom do on weekends. My days are so unstructured it's pretty hard. I did go walking with Darcy and Lynda on Sunday. We walked for about and hour and forty minutes but none of us had on our pedometers so we had no clue how far we had gone. My hubby and I drove by the area later in our car and measured out the distance. We had walked 2.8 miles on way for a total of 5.6 miles round trip!!!!!! Any upcoming 10K hear we come!

Monday always marks a new day. I plan out my meals, keep track of my calorie intake and generally do much better. I wish I had more restriction because even though I get full during my meal, at least three hours later, my stomach is growling and grumbling something fierce. 9 days till I see my doctor again.

My husband has a new job and I have been packing him a lunch. He is down a notch in his belt. I have been making him walk with me whenever I can. Damn men, they lose so much easier.

Saturday, April 4, 2009

A Beautiful Day

Well it's Saturday (weigh in day) and I showed a loss this week. Not much, but a loss nonetheless. I have joined SparkPeople to keep track of my daily points and I have done really well this week. It's still a little hard with no restriction. I am hungry all the time, but I stay strong and continue to make good choices.  I have a doctor's appointment coming up and hope he will give me a fill to take the hunger in between meals away.  I'm going walking with Darcy and Linda tomorrow.

The girls are coming over to scrap today so that will keep my day busy, busy, busy. We have alot of fun scrapping and chatting the day away.  I hope to have a nice date night with my husband tonight.  My favorite blogger "the world according to eggface" had posted a zucchini lasagna recipe that I hope to try out this weekend.  If it's good, I will be packing it in my lunch next week.

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

A new Challenge

Today was a good day.  Several of the girls at work have started a weight loss competition.  They won't let me participate because I would have an undue advantage over them, but I am hoping their participation will keep me motivated as well.  I am the official record keeper. There challenge will be fun to watch.

I joined a web-site called SparkPeople and keeps track of calories etc.  I stayed under 1300 today, but I didn't work out. So I need to get back on track with my walking.  It gets harder every day. But, each day is a new day and a new challenge.