Things are looking up.

Well I finally broke 180, only by half a pound mind you, but I'll take it. It's been hard work, but well worth it. One year ago I would never have spent the day at the beach. Yeah, I'm still hiding my legs, but I'm still out there. Of course I'm paying for it now with the aftermath of a sunburn, but it's turning into a very cool tan.

Third time is NOT the charm

Well I thought my last fill was finally the one and I was so wrong. I did well for a little over a week, was eating okay, not having too many problems.  Then on Thursday I started to feel some tightness, but Friday forget it. On Saturday the acid reflux had built up so bad that I was in constant pain. I started Prilosec but still in constant pain.  I thought about waiting it out and then I thought what if I wait and then can't get into see the doctor.  This morning I had gone three days without being able to keep down any amount of food or water in my system.  So I called and went in. I had .4 cc's taken out of my band and the doctor and I came up with a Prilosec regimen to keep the acid under control. I go back already on 7/22 so I will be careful and after three times I plan on telling the doc, no more fills that are more than .5 cc's at a time. It's just not worth it. I want to be thin, but I also want a quality of life and I don't want to risk dehydration etc.  So we try again.  Man for those people who say having weight loss surgery is the easy way out are just bonkers. They don't even know what we go through.

Plugging Along

I went for a fill last week and things are going okay so far. I think I'm eating too much but hey I am feeling some type of restriction.  I am hoping to get back to some steady weight loss. Even if it's slow that's okay.

As for the rest of life. I am at a crossroads in life. I am really hating my job but I'm so invested in my career there is no way to change now. Man there are times I wish I had picked a different field. Anyway, on a more creative note, if you are reading this blog, go on over to my mexicanmarta.blogspot.com cite and check out my craft stuff.

Hope

It's been along month. I haven't lost any weight but I haven't gained any either. This is very surprising since I have been grazing non-stop as if I never had surgery. Thankfully I have an appointment with the surgeon tomorrow for an adjustment and I hope I will be back on track soon.  I also joined LA Fitness and have started an exercise regimen that will help as well. So keep your fingers crossed and I'll keep you posted.

A Sunny Day

Well I continue to struggle but I focus on the fact that it is less than a week until I see my doctor and that it's almost June and it's a beautiful sunny day (albeit a smoggy one). I know I have had some set backs, but I've had some successes too. My clothes are loose, I can shop at regular stores, I can walk up a flight of steps without getting winded and on and on........ I think I'll look into once again joining a gym. I will maintain a positive and healthy attitude (really, I will).

Update

I haven't posted in a while. I've been very frustrated and scared because I have no restriction, I am eating too much and have been completely unable to keep any kind of motivation or will power on my own. I go back to the doctor a week from Wednesday but I feel like I'm just treading water. I know I should continue to embrace what I have already accomplished, but it hasn't been easy.

Frustrated

I haven't posted in a while. Mainly because I am very frustrated with how things are going. I went in for an unfill and of course as I knew would happen, I now have no restriction. I am eating more than I should and getting panicked about re-gaining my weight, which of course starts the cycle of discouragement all over again. On top of all that, I can't get in to see my doctor until 5/27.  I didn't make my Shrinko de Mayo goal of 185(188) and it's going to be a verrrrrrrry long month.